I have made no secret that I am fascinated with cosmetic injectables. I am one of those weird humans that searches YouTube for videos of people having things poked in their faces. As much as the injections themselves are interesting to watch I am fascinated to hear why people do it. I want to hear good experiences and horror stories. I want to know what certain injections do and what can go wrong. When I started considering having the injections done myself I wanted to speak to people who had experience, luckily I knew that Vicky had had injections in the past and she was more than happy to talk about it. Fortunately for me Vicky was also willing to take me along to her next appointment to really see how it was all done, but before that appointment I had some questions for Vicky:
Why do you choose to get Botox and fillers?
For me, Botox, fillers and plastic surgery are in the same category as tattoos, clothes, hair dye and corsets – they’re a means to turn the ‘blank canvas’ of a body into the person that we feel we are. For me, Botox and fillers are partly about fighting the signs of ageing (I don’t feel my age so I don’t want to look it!) and partly about creating the face shape and features that I want, in the same way that some people use diet, corsets, exercise and plastic surgery to create their desired body shape. For me, my chosen outward appearance has never been about conforming to society’s narrow ‘ideal’ beauty standards – my ideals of what I want to look like are all about being the ‘me’ that makes me happy. None of any part of my chosen appearance is for anyone other than myself.
How much research did you do before getting them done for the first time?
None, other than a bit of Googling what they were. It was something that I’d been curious about and keen to try for quite a while, but I didn’t know anyone who spoke openly about having Botox or fillers done to ask for advice, and I didn’t know where to start looking. I met Amanda when she came to me to have a dress made, and I plucked up the courage to ask her directly about Botox and fillers after seeing her work on her Instagram. Listening to her speak so openly and honestly was fantastic after all the tight-lipped secrecy and denial that I’d encountered. Amanda was so knowledgeable and reassuring, and understanding of my needs and expectations straight away, that I didn’t look anywhere else. I had my first Botox and fillers done a few days later and loved the results so much that I’ve never looked back.
Why did you agree to make this video?
I think that a lot of people are still afraid to talk about the fact that they’ve had Botox, fillers or plastic surgery done for fear of being judged as shallow or superficial. I want to demystify the process and encourage people to be more open and honest about the fact that they’ve had something done. For me, the lack of honesty, especially among celebs, when asked about cosmetic injectables or plastic surgery is as damaging as magazines not being honest about photoshopping – it’s giving even more unreal expectations around beauty standards that are often already unachievable. But, in order for people to be comfortable enough to talk openly about it, we need to stop the judgement surrounding it. We need to stop saying things like ‘you didn’t need that’ or ‘you looked fine before’ when a friend does choose to get something done. It’s not a choice people should be made to feel ashamed of. I hope that by sharing this video, and by me talking about my reasons and about the process, that we’re going to move a little towards that. And no – I didn’t need to do it, I chose to. And I’m going to keep doing it because it makes me happy, just as my tattoos, haircut, clothes and makeup choices make me happy.
Huge thanks to Amanda for being so willing to let us film and to talk us through the process. You can check out Amanda's work on her Instagram
Kimi is a Makeup Artist of 13 years and started abeauty YouTubechannel 18 months ago because she was passionate about helping people with their makeup struggles. In her blog series "That's What She Said", Kimi will be exploring the world of beauty and talking to people about all aspects of the beauty community in order to remove stigma and dispel myths about the industry in a 100 per cent positive way.